Off today, and I was feeling a little lonely, despite having a 5 year old in the house with me. Most people I know work so I can't call them to see if they want to do anything. I tried texting a couple of non-employed friends to see if they wanted to hang out, but the day wasn't good for one and the other never responded. I wallowed in self-pity for a bit, then picked myself up and moved forward with my day. Got some errands done, got a little exercise in, and if I'm intelligent, I'll get a little schoolwork done later. I'll also touch base with my friends later...though lately my work schedule and their free time isn't quite syncing up.
I admit, I've always been a bit of a loner. I grew up that way. I was very shy and not too popular (and living in the shadow of a popular sister as well as mother didn't help). I adjusted: I developed my own interests, became very independent, didn't have to rely on others for happiness. I do get out and join social groups and mingle with others. I take a lot of time in making IRL friends, so while I may not have tons of friends and am not a social butterfly, the ones I have are top-notch and I'm very close to them. And for the most part, I've lived a pretty happy life.
Still doesn't mean that I don't miss the company of others though. The fact that it's a grey rainy day (perfect for hanging out at someone's house) isn't helping. But oh well.
