I'm going to have to do two field assignments. I hate field assignments...I really do. I'm never entirely comfortable just going out there talking to strangers. I have no issues doing it with my patients at work but otherwise...yeah. I actually dreaded this class a bit more than I did Research because of that.
I don't think it's social anxiety. I think I just have a touch of Axis II that makes me not the best at social situations. Seriously, I wouldn't be surprised if a psychiatrist pronounced me as having traits of avoidant and/or schizoid personality disorder.
Or I could just be somewhat shy with strangers and that's it. Not every quirk has to be a major psychiatric issue, you know? One down-in-the-dumps day does not a diagnosis of depression make. Likewise, not wanting to interview people for a project doesn't mean I've definitely got a personality disorder.
That's one thing about us who are in psych: we tend to overanalyze and self-diagnose, which isn't necessarily a good thing. They warned us about it in the first day of nursing school...and yet before the class was over most of us in the class had self-imposed Axis I and II diagnoses.
Anyhow...
Given that this is the last class before Capstone--plus the fact that there's no way of getting out of this class--I'm feeling optimistic that I can do this. Only two more hurdles to cross before I can put BSN after my name.
Actually, when I'm done I'll be RN-BC, BSN. Or BSN, RN-BC. And then once I apply for public health nurse certification--which I can do after graduation--I can add PHN to the alphabet soup.
I had thought about reading ahead for this class but decided not to. I've always been a firm believer that breaks from school should be just that: breaks from school. I shouldn't have to be doing schoolwork on breaks...if I wanted to idly thumb through a textbook or guide, that's one thing. But otherwise I should be enjoying the time off while I can, since the next few weeks will be busy enough.
