Cancelled on a Sunday...as anyone who is a nurse or CNA in a hospital knows, this is as rare of an occurrence as pigs flying.
Part of me is happy to now have a three-day weekend (I am off tomorrow). Also, I'm working next weekend--those hours are guaranteed--and it's nice to not have to work two weekends in a row. And I do have to keep catching up on my class: I'm still a couple of weeks behind my schedule.
And part of me is insecure about my ability to get future hours, even though I know very well that this is how the float pool works. You put in hours and you're not guaranteed any of them. And you're competing against other float pool nurses for whatever hours they do have. Plus the float pool increased by one--a nurse who was out on extended leave is back in the rotation. And from what I've heard, she's making a lot of noise about how she should be getting hours for herself.
Though things usually work out for me--at least somewhat work out. I was worried about November being a famine month, until I looked at my calendar and realized that since I wrote that post, I have picked up enough odd assignments here and there to fill up most of my schedule. Plus I could always call job #2--they'd NEVER cancel me on a weekend. I know the facility is short-staffed because my agency has been advertising for nurses.
I'm so looking forward to meeting my therapist tomorrow. I feel like
every other post in here is about my anxiety in some way. Though it's
better for me to hash out with my insecurities here than to hash them out at
work or with my family. I don't think work would be very understanding or sympathetic...they'd see me more as a liability than anything. And my family doesn't need that stress.
