Four years ago today I found out that I passed the NCLEX. Happy nursing anniversary!
As I wrote earlier, we're going on a small vacation this month. I dug out an old swimsuit which fit me...for the most part. It's passable...but not flattering.
You see, even though I am now at my pre-pregnancy weight, this body does not look like it did before I actually got pregnant. Two children have wreaked their havoc on the body. The stomach is flabby from being stretched out, cut open and sewn back together. 50 pounds gained the first time and 41 pounds gained the second time...surprisingly, I do not have any stretch marks.
My chest is still pornstar-esque in its dimensions, though it has shrunk slightly--I think I may now be an E cup instead of an F.
The burn scar is pretty hideous...ok, that's not the children's fault in any way, shape or form. But the fact is that I can usually pretend it doesn't exist as shorts/pants neatly conceal it. Swimsuits do not conceal it.
*sigh*
So after work, I dragged the family two towns over to where a Lane Bryant that sells swimsuits exists. One day I will graduate from having to shop there...I'm not too far off: I fit into their smallest sizes.
Anyhow, I go and look at swimsuits. Unfortunately for me, they just had a swimsuit sale and pickings are slim. If I were a size 22 or 24, no problem. A size 14 to 16, however…
I did find one that could have worked. However, it had a corset-style lacing that made it impossible to get myself into…but that wasn't the deal killer. The deal killer was the $120 price tag. Seriously, if I'm going to spend over a C note on a swimsuit, it better be easy to get into and apply my sunscreen for me. Plus the fact that I intend not to be this size for the rest of my life, so why am I going to spend $120 on a swimsuit that hopefully I won't fit into a couple of months down the road.
So I went home and ordered a swimdress from their website. $50, which is more than I'd like to spend on a swimsuit…but better than $120. I just hope it arrives in time.
